misplaced memories

the cold weather is bringing some memories back into sharp focus. Specifically girls dated. I've never really dated anyone during the summer. last week I was remembering Bethany and how magical that was.

Now its Emily, though those memories shouldnt be rearing their collective heads until sometime in December they showed up anyway.

That was a great time in my life. Seriously. She was my first kiss (to those calling shenanigans, Bethany never kissed, because she was prude like that, which in retrospect is pretty cool, though at the time it was lame) and we went to shows together and nerded out talking about music on a regular basis. She was/is awesome and while I'm definetly over her I miss those times, but not in a obsessive way, just a reflective way. You know what I mean. hey Emm, I don't know if you still read this or not, but I just wanted you to know I'm sorry for being a shitty boyfriend way back then, especially there at the end. I hope C-town is treating you well.

I was also interning at my church and working at subway. Also, every night, due to my flat feet and the severe pain that standing on them all day making sandwiches would bring, I was on oxycodone to help me sleep. I would crank up the heat in my room, play Brave Saint Saturn on the ipod and pass out. I still havent slept as well as I did then. I fully understand how people get addicted to that stuff. Seriously. I realize I';m straight edge and all. But it felt awesome. just saying guys.