have you ever had a a single thought paralyze you? Something that came to mind that was so powerful that you almost unconsciously stop everything else you were doing to focus on it? That happened to me today. I was listening to As Cities Burn and one lyric hit me and I havent been able to stop thinking about it.
The song is called "Our World Is Grey" and the line goes "she's putting cuts on her legs to bleed out the devil." You see my ex used to cut herself. I remember very clearly her showing me the swiss army knife she used and explaining how and where she would cut herself She used to cut herself on the legs, first with the regular blade to make the initial cut, then with the serrated one to make the cut deeper.
As those words from the song rang out in my ears, mental images of her doing that rocked through my mind. I almost cried. If you're wondering what the hell is wrong with me, briefly imagine someone you care for intentionally hurting themselves in that way.
wow...... I'm tearing up as I type this.
Powerful thoughts give us reason for pause.
Have you ever had this experience?
Saturday, October 10, 2009
we live in a beautiful world
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I used to, but within the last year have seriously begun to deal with all the stuff those memories entail, in order to process and get rid of them. (And by "get rid of them" I mean: not in the forefront of my memory anymore, not something I immediately jump to in a given situation, etc).
Scientists say that Olfactory (Smell) memories are the easiest for the human brain to recall. I do not disagree, however I believe that Auditory (Hearing) Memories are just as easy to recall, seeing as I can listen to one or two particular songs that will have me on the floor, in the fetal position, bawling and shaking like a leaf.
I have a pretty strange stance on the cutting thing, seeing as a) I'm "in recovery" and b) as a human being. A lot of people I've talked with don't like my stance at all, and think I'm a terrible human being for believing that way. I won't explain it here, as it's too long winded.
I'm still here for you, lil bro.
Love.
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