mini blog

I love doing this, so here goes

-Dear Luise, though you will never in a million years read this ever ever ever ever, I don't hate you, I still care about you. Why do you think I was there for your baptism? I broke things off in your best interest, You were simply not ready to be in a relationship, and I couldn't stand the thought of me being a panic attack trigger for you when we spent time together.

-I feel like such a poor college student, one of today's highlights was going to walmart and the dollar store.  At the dollar store I bought two new manly coffee cups (they have swords on them) a candle shaped like buddha, a black light bulb (not a black light, but more like someone colored a regular lightbulb with a sharpie), and pop rocks.

-I want to sit down every kid who likes this techno-hardcore/ screamo bullshit and force them to listen to the discographies of Botch, Coalesce, Converge, Neurosis, Isis, Snapcase, Deadguy, etc.

-With that said, everyone into metalcore needs to own a copy of Converge's album Jane Doe. It is simply a masterpiece.

-Things stressing me out: Large groups of people I know, My ex

-Things I can deal with: Large groups of strangers, small groups, Jr. High youth group

Things I like: One on one hang outs, band practice, watching movies alone, my job, anything I can do with my earphones on

-Best albums of the year: Coalesce~OX, Isis~Wavering Radiant, ETID~New Junk Aesthetic, Mastodon~Crack The Skye, Animal Collective~Merriweather Post Pavillion

-Soon to be added to the list: Converge~Axe To Fall

-Other albums from this year I absolutely love: As Cities Burn~Hell or High Water, mewithoutYou~it's all crazy! it's all false! it's all a dream! it's alright, The Chariot~Wars and Rumors of Wars, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster~III, August Burns Red~Constellations

-2009 is a good year for music. Seriously new releases from Coalesce, Isis and Converge? ridiculous.

-Can't someone just hold me? I feel so totally out of whack and need to be brought back.

with all of that said, good night everyone. I love you all. for realsies.

fucking..... whatever.........

I'll write back soon, I promise. I'm sorry

I've been feeling so whacked out recently, a wise friend of mine suggested its probably lack of sleep and lots of coffee.

The band I just joined forgot me today. sweet.

New music that's good:
Every Time I Die- New Junk Aesthetic
Thrice- Beggars
Brand New- Daisy
The_Network- Bishop Kent Manning

Bands  I just got into:
Godspeed! You Black Emperor
Arcade Fire
Muse
The Bled

Bands I keep meaning to get into
Dillinger Escape Plan
Godflesh
Future Of Forestry
Poison The Well

CDs I'm Looking forward to:
Converge- Axe To Fall
Coalesce- Ox EP
Between The Buried and Me- The Great Misdirect
Wrench In The Works- Decrease/Increase
Relient K- Forget and Not Slow Down
Swtichfoot- Hello Hurricane

I cut grapes for a living now

I want genuine hugs

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