I'm certainly the biggest asshole on the planet. Seriously.
I had a dream two nights ago that me and luise were back together. I got me thru the day. I hate how much I miss her. I think I'm idealizing our relationship in my mind. whatever. fuck me. I have the feeling we'll be back together someday. mood currently summarized by the songs I miss you and down by Blink 182. I am so fucking teenager and emo about this whole thing. I kind of wonder if I fianlly realized what love is. Probably not. probably not at all.
I wish me phone worked. I could call Bryn and talk things over. Christy, big sister, need you like crazy.
I am so fucking tired. I worked every day this week aout 8 hours a day. and I'm working tomorrow again 9 hours. then maybe sunday. then definetly mon-wed. with a possibility of thursday and friday if tues and sunday get rained out.
who doesnt love doing 2 weeks of work in 10 days?
am I making any sense?
Friday, October 2, 2009
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First off, I highly doubt you're the biggest asshole on the planet. Seriously. Also, even those of us who've found "real love" still don't really fully understand what it means to love your other person so much. It's a really...unregulated system...this love thing...
I'm sorry that this thing with Luise is causing some issues. I guess what I'm trying to say is while you're still young you're definitely not what I'd call a stereotypical "fucking teenager and emo" since most of THOSE people don't have a clue. You're a lot more mature than most of those.
Also, you're ALLOWED to be sad about it. You're allowed to grieve it, to miss her, etc. Just try not to get too wallowed in self-pity. That never brings good things.
My schedule has been super crazy the last few weeks, hence I am not online as much as I would like to be. I'm always available via email, and will always, ALWAYS respond.
I miss you, lil bro, stay strong. Love you just as much as always.
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